Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Life Goes On



 

Life goes on.

It doesn't stop just because your heart has been shattered into a million tiny pieces or because a piece of you has died, never to return.
The world keeps turning. The sun rises and sets. Days come and go. Life goes on....without him.
We have this tendency in life to fall into a routine of doing the same thing day in and day out.
Don't get me wrong. I LOVE routine and organization in my life.
But falling back into routine has been so difficult when I should be starting a new routine.

I should be packing my hospital bag, making sure all of the baby clothes are washed, folded, and put away, making meals to put in the freezer, and preparing for our schedule to be thrown totally out of wack by a new baby joining the family.

Instead I have none of those things to worry about.

The baby things have been packed away, the hospital bag was never packed, and there is no need to stock the freezer with food.
Life is back to normal.....but it isn't. Nor will it ever be.
He should be arriving in a couple of weeks, instead, he has been gone for months.
Most things in life you can fix or do over again. Most things we can make it right and have a second chance.
There are no second chances in death (not on this earth anyway).

I think that is the hardest part...knowing that it will never be changed...fixed...or different.
It is finished.
Complete.
Final.

The joy and the laughter in life sometimes reminds us of the joy that we are missing that we would have had with them. That we had all planned out in our mind to have with them...a lifetime with them.
It is a piece of our life that we thought was going to be a part of ours that no longer belongs to us. That we will never see.

My faith is SO much bigger that all of the sadness and the emptiness that is felt sometimes.

I know deep down in my soul that I will see him again someday.

                                                                                                  Someday just seems so very far away.

As Angie Smith says: "It is a dance of grief and joy."

You want them to be here with you, you want to be there with them, but you are left somewhere in between.

I am so very blessed to have four children to invest in. They remind me how important each and every day is.
They are my life-force and He is my life-line.

I am so blessed for all that I have learned through all of this. I am a very different person, one that I wouldn't have been without walking through the life and death of my sweet baby boy, Isaac.

Thank you God for holding my hand, for carrying me through the difficult moments, for carrying me through the fire, and for whispering to me......
                                                      "I promise you that it is all worth it."
 

 










Wednesday, April 17, 2013

sunshine & adventures in photography

It has been a #nofilter, birdwatching, sunshine streaming through the windows kind of afternoon.
 
This picture of Evan is what provoked me to take out my camera
and sneak a few shots of him dog watching
 out his bedroom window.
 




 
Of course it wasn't long before Owen decided to join in the fun.
 

 
And of course the girls followed...
 
Olivia

and then Emilee
 
and then of course the posing began

 
Where has the time gone?
Where have my baby girls gone?

 
And through all of my brokenness I see just how Abundantly Blessed I am.
 
-Kristin
 

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Three Months: Poetry & Balloons

Three months...
 
My how the time is passing without you here.
 
Three months seems as though it was so very long ago since I was able to hold you and kiss your sweet, sweet face...
                     ...yet just the same it feels like it was yesterday and as if time is standing still.
 
It is amazing to me that it has been three months since you were born, yet we haven't even reached your due date yet.
 
It is quickly approaching though...


Three months. Three balloons. We miss you little boy.
 
Happy three months...
 


Yesterday words were swirling around in my head and something told me that I should grab a pen and my notebook. I guess if I am going to be a writer when I grow up I need to be ready to write when the words are flowing. This is what came from the pen:

 
His Mission for You & for Me
 
I knew from the beginning,
before you were conceived,
that God had a mission,
a mission for you and me.
 
He took a hold of my heart
and pulled it with His strings.
He whispered in my ear
that I would do great things.
 
He nestled you inside me
just as He had planned
and then as trouble came
He promised to hold my hand.
 
He taught me hope and trust,
to love through faith and fear.
He showed me no matter what
that He would be here.
 
He wrapped His arms around me
and held you in His hand,
as you slipped through my fingers
like tiny grains of sand.
 
I knew I couldn't stop it.
I knew I must let go.
For He had other plans for you,
ones I did not know.
 
My plans could not compare
to the life He had for you.
To hold you in His loving care
until my days are through.
 
Some days my heart aches for you,
some days it swells with love.
For I know that you reside with Him
our Heavenly Father above.
 
I miss you my sweet angel.
I miss your beautiful face.
If you were here in my arms
your features I would trace.
 
I would place a kiss on your face
as I sing of God's amazing grace.
 
Your mission has been completed.
Your work on earth is done.
Fly away my bluebird
in the brightness of the sun.
 
I knew from the beginning
before you were conceived
that God had a mission,
a mission for you and me.
 
 
-Kristin L. Dahman
 


Thursday, April 4, 2013

Abundant Blessings from Broken Pieces: Putting Life's Puzzle Together One Piece at a Time

Abundant Blessings blog is transforming
along with the seasons of this life.
 
The transformations of this blog is changing as am I.
This is life.
We grow and we change but One thing remains constant...
Him.
 
Where He leads I will follow.
 
I hope that you will join us through the seasons of life and what they reveal to us.
 
Abundant Blessings is now
 
Broken Pieces Being Made Whole
 Abundant Blessings from Broken Pieces. Putting life's puzzle together one piece at a time.
 
 
 
Change is inevitable but He remains the same.
 
Come and follow me.
 
Stay tuned!
 
-Kristin