May 4, 2013
Isaac's due date.
The day of your baby's birth should be filled with eminence joy.
Beautiful pictures of a fresh newborn.
The proud parents.
Pictures with siblings.
The first family photo with all of you together for the very first time.
It was so hard to find an appropriate expression for my face the day Isaac was born.
How could I smile......but all the same how couldn't I smile?
I was holding our little boy in my arms and seeing his face for the first time. How could I not smile at him?
He was perfectly formed.
He was beautiful.
He was my son.
He was a part of both of us, formed from our love.
How could I not smile at the beauty?
This was not how it was supposed to be.
Or was it?
This was God's plan.
It was not my plan....but they never are.
We just think that they are.
I could dwell on the fact that he should be here right now.
Honestly, I would rather not.
He is where God intended him to be.
I may not understand it in all of the sadness but I do see it in all of the joy.
My arms may feel empty but He is holding my hand.
My heart may feel shattered but He is mending it.
I know that God has AMAZING plans for us.
Moving forward my focus is on them.
I am so abundantly blessed to have held my son...
to have known him...
to have carried him...
and to have been the one that had the honor of handing him over to He who created him.
As I sang to him his lullaby he was opening his eyes to see His face for the first time.
Thank you God for entrusting him to me, for a time.
Thank you for holding him in your presence for a lifetime.
Feeding you here
Rocking you there
Reading to you
"My love will find you wherever you are."
Keepsakes
Your hand prints and your footprints
...and your empty blanket.
Your blanket may be empty but so was the tomb that we now celebrate.
May we always celebrate you my sweet boy.
"May the Lord Mighty God bless and keep you forever."
Kristin
